Exactly one year ago, I was about to be famous. My life changed.
Have a TV show...
Do shows around the world...
Be a guest on Terry Gross...
This profile of me came out last May http://nymag.com/daily/intelligencer/2015/05/fears-of-boswick-the-clown.html
I mean. Come on. Executives in New York are going to have to see this and notice how funny I am.
For a year, nothing has happened. I mean. Nothing. I was mentioned on Twitter a bit. No other writers followed up. No TV shows, no one asking me to fly in to do their kid's faire.
This last week, I went to New York for my sons college graduation. (So proud...so sad). One of the things I really had to do was meet with Benjamin the writer of the story. I have had so many conversations with him in my head. I've had so many nights that I was mad at myself for doing the wrong thing. Saying the wrong thing. Bringing him to the wrong place. Why didn't I set up more shows? He didn't see me do any large school shows, a place where I kill.
I met Benjamin for lunch. He was an entirely different person. Because he wasn't focused on me, he was just this super nice, smart interesting guy, who knows a lot about me. But we're not friends.
I left our lunch with a sense of relief. As important as I think I am. To him, it was a story. He may like me, he may like what I do. But I have effected him very little. What I want is to effect people and events. It's important to me.
So for the year while I waited for someone to notice me. I have become a clown no forward momentum.
This is why closure is so important. I can move forward. I can work on my latest joke book. I haven't worked on my video blog in way over a year. I love video. My videos are also very funny.
It was cool to have this thing done about me. I'm not as important as I think.
But what I love doing is being creative. I stopped being creative this past year. Writing joke books, making funny videos, working on a script for a children's tv show. All things I do. I need them in order to feel like myself. I am pretty classic in my depression. I've always suffered from it. How I cope is to create. It's like taking drugs. Which is probably true. I imagine when I get focused and excited about a project, I get a little burst of adrenaline in my blood stream, feels good.
As busy as this last week was. My son graduating, seeing him as much as I could. Seeing people I haven't seen in a while. Exploring New York. I am glad I made closure a priority. I highly recommend it.
Have a TV show...
Do shows around the world...
Be a guest on Terry Gross...
I mean. Come on. Executives in New York are going to have to see this and notice how funny I am.
For a year, nothing has happened. I mean. Nothing. I was mentioned on Twitter a bit. No other writers followed up. No TV shows, no one asking me to fly in to do their kid's faire.
This last week, I went to New York for my sons college graduation. (So proud...so sad). One of the things I really had to do was meet with Benjamin the writer of the story. I have had so many conversations with him in my head. I've had so many nights that I was mad at myself for doing the wrong thing. Saying the wrong thing. Bringing him to the wrong place. Why didn't I set up more shows? He didn't see me do any large school shows, a place where I kill.
I met Benjamin for lunch. He was an entirely different person. Because he wasn't focused on me, he was just this super nice, smart interesting guy, who knows a lot about me. But we're not friends.
I left our lunch with a sense of relief. As important as I think I am. To him, it was a story. He may like me, he may like what I do. But I have effected him very little. What I want is to effect people and events. It's important to me.
So for the year while I waited for someone to notice me. I have become a clown no forward momentum.
This is why closure is so important. I can move forward. I can work on my latest joke book. I haven't worked on my video blog in way over a year. I love video. My videos are also very funny.
It was cool to have this thing done about me. I'm not as important as I think.
But what I love doing is being creative. I stopped being creative this past year. Writing joke books, making funny videos, working on a script for a children's tv show. All things I do. I need them in order to feel like myself. I am pretty classic in my depression. I've always suffered from it. How I cope is to create. It's like taking drugs. Which is probably true. I imagine when I get focused and excited about a project, I get a little burst of adrenaline in my blood stream, feels good.
As busy as this last week was. My son graduating, seeing him as much as I could. Seeing people I haven't seen in a while. Exploring New York. I am glad I made closure a priority. I highly recommend it.
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